I met the love of my life at 5 years old
By the age of five, I already understood what it meant to be in love with one of my God-given gifts and pursue it.
As children, we are innocent and naturally curious and wonderfully naïve and fearless. We just do what naturally feels good and joyful. We do things just for the fun of it. Remember what that felt like? Just simply being to be and not doing for any particular gain.
That was my relationship with singing.
I began singing at five years old and continued professionally until I was 27. Pursuing a career in singing was effortless and natural, much like breathing, really. It always felt like home, comfortable and familiar. It was always there for me. I could always rely on my voice and getting lost in the love of it. Music fed my soul.
I would learn much later in life that how I lived for those formative 22 years—following my passion without question or concern—was uncommon, but it was the only way I knew how (and wanted) to live.
My first profound LIFE LESSON
My mother would always ask me why I chose a career path that was so challenging and unstable.
I would tell her, “I didn’t choose this, it chose me.”
As I matured into adulthood, I knew I’d never do anything for “work” that didn’t make me feel the way I felt when I sang. It wouldn’t be worth the kind of dedication I pour into my work without such a meaningful return, without feeding my soul.
Looking back, I realize the gift was so much more than just a beautiful voice.
It led me to the exact place I am today. It gave me profound insight into and experience in passion, dedication, accountability, rejection, determination, fearlessness, courage, blind faith, manifestation, intuition, personal connection, and learning how to make peace after letting go of the love of your life.
It was the END of an era
Sadly, but also beautifully, my singing career ended.
Tears were shed and I had to mend a very broken heart, but I looked ahead and asked the universe, “What’s next?”
I’ve always loved a good celebration. Even now, I notice we don’t celebrate ourselves enough. We don’t take time out of life to celebrate great love, meaningful friendships, family milestones, new jobs, personal growth, and all victories both big and small.
We are so caught up in glorifying how busy we are and always living in the future instead of rejoicing in the present moment, which is the ONLY moment in our lives that truly exists.
After my successful 22-year-long run in the music industry, I was primed to launch a VIP event-planning business. And it came naturally. I threw parties for celebrities, major recording artists, athletes, models—you get the idea.
It was years of red carpets, long nights, no sleep, stress, bad habits, and self-important BS. I let my job define me. It became who I was and my title was EVERYTHING.
I was an EGOmaniac and the worst part was that I was NOT LIVING IN THE MOMENT.
I never even realized how successful I really was, because after all the celebrations and wonderful memories I created for others, I never once celebrated MYSELF!
I just wanted MORE. I was lost in the rat race. I was on that hamster wheel and I had no way to get off.
But little did I know, the universe was working behind-the-scenes on my exit strategy…
Sudden death & my do-over
The economy started to crumble and slowly, so did my business.
During this time, my boyfriend, childhood friend, a man I loved deeply, passed away.
I took a PAUSE.
I moved out of my overpriced NYC apartment and moved in with a family friend.
I needed to mourn the loss of him and what seemed like myself.
Once I woke up from my holiday of depression, I began to think more clearly.
I was able to check in with myself and reassess my life. I was mindful enough to see and hear the signs that the universe was throwing my way—if you’re not paying attention, you will miss them!
And it led me to Miami. I came on a much-needed vacation. I had always been madly in love with and deeply engaged by the ocean.
The minute I landed and that tropical breeze hit my face, I felt home. Weeks later I packed up my Jeep and drove down, just like that. I trusted my intuition to guide me to a city where I felt calm and safe.
I knew it was the right move to make. And I have lived in Miami happily for 7 years.
I may have changed cities, but I hadn’t completely changed my approach to life and work. I soon found myself back in a similar work situation, taking a job as an event planner in the hospitality industry. I fell right back into the grind, jumping from one event-planning job to another, never feeling satisfied.
I knew in my heart it was not for me! But I masked my fear by calling it “practicality.”
The TRUTH will set you FREE
My body, mind, heart, spirit and bank account were all screaming the same thing, “Get OUT!” But how do you leave the life you created and know so well, one that’s so familiar? How do you abandon the only thing you think you know how to do?
After taking a suggestion from a friend, I attended a personal development workshop about getting unstuck in life.
Within 10 minutes I was called on to publicly assess the state of each area of my life. I failed miserably.
I had let all the truly important areas of my life fall to the wayside because everything was based on my career. I had given my entire self to what I DID, and not BEING just to BE.
This moment WOKE ME UP! NO MORE, NO WAY! My life was not fine; it was not even OK!
When did less than OK become my new normal?
CIJ saved my life
This powerful workshop culminated with an offer to take a transformational life course called the Creative Insight Journey . I signed up immediately.
It’s the best thing I have ever done for myself!
Even with all my challenges I was an obsessive Oprah watcher, I read Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav when I was 19 (blew my mind) I read Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, Elizabeth Gilbert, the list is endless.
I’ve always been a spiritual being and knew a greater force was with me. I just needed to get back on track.
Each week presented a profoundly relatable, yet powerful life tool in a way I had never heard or quite applied to myself. We shared, bonded, and called each other weekly. We were held accountable to ourselves, our intentions, goals, and so much more. Every week, I peeled back a new layer and a little piece of myself peaked through. No work, no title, no sadness, no judgment, no expectations, just me.
During our daily meditations and journaling, I became so mindful, present, and grateful in my life. All the self-sabotaging thoughts and obsessive thinking I had went away. My mind just got quiet. Ahhh, what a gift.
I had profound moments of clarity and joy. I began to know myself again and developed an even deeper, more meaningful connection to the people in my life and my class.
The beginning of my Journey
As my classmates resonated with me and my insights, my teacher began hinting at a career as a coach and one night, even called on me to substitute. That was my first step.
In that moment, I knew all I wanted was to share this gift with every single person I came in contact with. My passion was back! I knew with 100% certainty this was what I was meant to do with my life.
A gift from the Universe
Through CIJ and coaching, I found the BEST ME and I have never looked back.
It’s been the most honest, fulfilling time of my life. I’m madly in love with this curriculum and teaching it. I feel so very honored each time people attend my workshops and trust in me and take my course. To see the light come on in all of you as the weeks go by is the best feeling in the world.
I hope all of you find the BEST YOU! We only get one very short quick shot at life. Live it to the fullest!
Do and be what you love. Celebrate. Find your passion and dive in every day. Take time for you. Love with your entire heart. Be fearless and stay open!
With all my heart and soul,